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11.29.06
Today I was conducting oral exams with students, and I found out that a student didn’t have much patience when reading. like myself. Maybe it wasn’t a lack of patience, but she said that it took her a long time to get through books. That might not be the lack of patience at all, but longsuffering. I wish I could hear someone say long suffering sometime in a conversation. This phenomenon seems to be only a written thing. But I probably heard someone say longsuffering in Christian high school, quoting the Bible and referencing God’s path. I was also thinking about the word mighty the other day, it’s been too long since I’ve been able to appropriately use that word in discourse. I think that one also showed up in some Hymns or Worship songs.
Five days a week I wake up around 6 or 6:30 so I can get to work on time. The fact that both of my bosses lack personality and humanity has a direct relation to my neuroses and nervous approach to making sure I dot all my j’s and such at work. Making it on time, turning in my folder with attendance, not wearing sunglasses during class, don’t letting students out early, being professional, not using white out, not mixing business and pleasure. When you work there often isn’t enough time to reflect about what the hell you’re doing and what the hell is what the hell you’re doing and what the hell everything is, which can also be a good thing.
That’s alright. But who’s here when I’m not here? Who’s here when there’s still presence but not I? some one is here who’s still present, some consciousself, Right now someone’s outside the window honking the horn, it’s 9:08 p.m. There almost always seems to be some sort of nocturnal activity going on across the street from my apartment. Outside my neighbor’s apartment. Dizque my neighbor’s an alcoholic, I’ve seen him a couple of times in the street. He’s around my age, a young man. He always tries to flag me down and speak to me in English, how’s it going dude, I guess he lived in
I like my neighborhood, though, it’s what is called “popular” in Spanish. It’s very traditional and there aren’t a lot of white people, there are a lot of stray dogs and some cats who are very noisy when they copulate, there aren’t hardly any people from the
I get out of class every day around 4:00 and often stroll around my house in the living room in the afternoon. Today outside my window in the apartment below mine there were children celebrating a birthday party. Some young barely along in years, the world is still a novelty to be breathed, creating a fragile curved drop of water dropping that you won’t remember accurately. They were hitting piñatas on clotheslines surrounded by concrete on all sides; I watched on nostalgically, surrounded by contentment and reserved joy.
Everything is usually satisfactory and all right and I’m drinking black tea and smoking a Marlboro Blue cigarette right now. Do they have blue marlboro cigarettes in my country? I don’t ever remember seeing them. It’s a real Nice Mild Blend. So, anyways, I try to keep a calm nature and when a problem arises I try to be the problem and not think about it, about separation between me and something else, you know, and all that other zen shit I’ve been into lately. A lot of times I forget to do it but when I remember it usually works and brings me some piece of Mind. It’s very pragmatically based, if you’re into that kind of applicable shit. I’m also down with its metaphysics.
The connection between “being somewhere else” and “being where you are” has a funny nature that continually uncovers itself, often revealing circularity. In any case it’s good to be where I am, it always should be good to be where I am. I have a fucking sty in my eye, though, it’s the second time I’ve gotten one since I’ve been in
Right now my girlfriend is out spraypainting advertisements for a release party for a magazine/journal of which she’s involved in the production. It’s called
it's at once entertaining and terrific to sketch my present profile in 75 hour work weeks, dominant interests include forms of feminine flesh and french structuralist bullshit, or an economic reality dominated by the logic of late capitalism, or by cycles of materialistic leitmotifs of sore testicles, odd sorenesses just at the edge of the lower ribs. jesus may be coming back any day now, and i really don't think i can finish off all the extra gravy that came with this countrie-fried steak.
the midwest begins again from a ( ) point of entry. they are putting the snow barricades up and there is space. and lack but not that kind of material lack, if you permit me or if i permit myself to dichotomize between the spiritual/ethereal and the material. but i don't want to wander around in those tunnels right now....
enough obscure posting. today i slept off and on until about 3:00. i had dreams, maybe a bit more like daydreams or fantasies given the autonomy i had over them, myself (perhaps only myself metonymically) hovering somewhere between consciousness and unconsciousness. i could try to explain to you what they were about but i doubt it would make any sense. i think it may have had something to do with divisions and sub-divisions of singular things and perhaps categories, and royalty as well, but that's as close as i can get. i got up and rode my bike around and saw some people i know, and had a mexican pizza. last night i hung out with my colleague Metal, and i mentioned that I liked when he said in his paper, althought this paraphrase won't do it justice, that metaphors are useful because they allow us to understand truth in varying degrees, rather than in terms of binary oppositions (Perspectivism as Anti-Realism, Kevin Cook, 2004). and then last night he said that metaphors are our strike back at language and it's inflation and proliferation of signifieds. i added a bit to what he said paraphrastically. and i agreed wholeheartedly and drank some more beer.
37 distracted images, limited by math. sequences nearly mimicked, with room left for infinity. there is no bastardized moment, but creation, and repetition: humans weaved in through cyclical time, filling up language's empty spaces in a labyrinth of meaning and identity.
quote:why is there something, instead of nothing.